The Game Plan?

Lately I've been struggling. While getting caught up in everything that's happening around me.. Which is why I've been told to develop a "game plan" for what I need to do and plan to do. As well as include my timeline on my daily schedule. I understand the concept. But I'm not sure I know the answers yet.

I don't want to think too hard into it. But I also don't want to miss any details or problems I should consider for a solution? The advice I've been given for now is to guard my money and to do my tools the best I can. (The tools are: Service, Writing, Anonymity, Literature, Telephone Calls, Meetings, Abstinence, and Sponsorship.)

So far my only ideas are the following changes:

• "Quiet time" spent by taking a AM walk.
• Everything is turned off by at least 9:00 PM.
• 7:30-8:30 AM & 8:30-9:30 PM is Literature.
• Meals are completely pre-made for the entire week.
• Buy food fresh weekly instead of bi-weekly.
• Blog (writing) once a day.
• Make a small personal garden for vegetables.

Other then that I still have more thought I need to put into it. Because I do know that I will be attending school again. In addition to riding the bus to get around. (8:17 - 8:25 AM from home and to two other bus transfers: 8:25 - 8:45, & 9:22 - 9:33 = Arrive at school grounds.) Which is about an hour and a half to make it there by bus. Class stays in session til about noon. Though that is for a lunch break before opening the afternoon class.

The last thing I suppose is to reset my sleeping schedule. It's so easily disrupted and so difficult to correct. Along with the fact that I've always had difficulty with sleeping for as long as I can remember. I have a decent alarm clock, it works when I have enough rest and have a proper sleeping schedule. But lately I've been sleeping late into the day.

Well its late, so I'll be back at this again tomorrow.. Hopefully I'll come up with some ideas before too late into the morning?

A Normal Day.

Today was a long day. Because there was so much to do. I won't go into a huge amount of detail, so I'll just list what happened:

1. I took my cousin and her boyfriend to the recycling center.
2. I did 5 loads of laundry.
3. I drove my cousin to a friends.
4. I went to our local food give away.
5. I dropped my dad off at his home.
6. Went for two walks around the neighborhood.
7. Finished a movie I've never seen before: American Gangsters.
8. Picked my niece up from kindergarden.
9. Picked up a very mad mom for being late.
10. Rolled my sister a pack of menthol cigarettes.
11. Picked up my other cousin from work and drove him home.
12. Had my nephew clean his room. (Which I've been fighting him to do for a couple of days now.)
13. Put away all my laundry and had the kids fold their clothes.
14. Went to a local gym to use a trial membership. 
15. Took a shower and changed clothes.
16. Sorted out my pill separator for my medications.
17. And still counting the things that remain to be done.

I definitely missed my morning breakfast.. (Again.) I forgot to have my food list ready for this morning. (For what I plan to eat.) I got my lunch, which was: 4 ounces of fish, 6 ounces of fruit, 6 ounces of green beans. And also my dinner: 4 ounces of chicken, 6 ounces of apples, 6 ounces of asparagus. But no salad..

I'm really tired now, and today was hectic, but I feel a little bit better about today. Tomorrow, I get to start over and try again.

Body Composition Analysis

 So today I did some uploading.. Firstly I uploaded the Word Document of my Analysis report. Which is in the link below. It contains basic information about my weight, etc.

Body Composition Analysis

If it asks for a password please use: bumudupozufo.

And secondly, I uploaded some unflattering photos of what I look like. Everyone says the new haircut is cute.. I enjoyed the compliments but - All I can see is what a train wreck I look like. I'm not happy about it one bit. Someone might as well rename me Flubber?

I also seem to have a obsession with knowing what my new weight is? I'm only suppose to weigh once a month. But I find myself uncontrollably drawn to the scale everyday. I feel better about losing the weight, but I feel crappy about how I look. How is that possible? It's a contradiction to me.

Front:

Side:

 

Aside from that, I'm having the children continuously bug me. It's so frustrating! I know they don't mean anything by it. But I just want to snap at them! So I guess I'll pop on later to finish up.

Just a California Girl

 I've been working on a 12 step program to try and get help for myself. So far I've been doing OK, but there's plenty of room left for improvement. (Especially since I'm only at the beginning.)

So, without further delay, here are my stats:

293 lbs
5 feet and 6 inches tall
56 inch waist
27 years old
Female
Brown Hair
Blue Eyes
Caucasian
Glasses


The 293 was my starting weight at my first weigh in. 56 was the last Men's size pants I remember wearing. So there are a few differences since then. My top wieght also far exceeded 300 lbs but I don't know by how much.

It's been a little over a month, I think, since I've been doing this. I hope everything goes OK, because nothing else has worked. Anyway, my current weight is 267. I guess I have that to be happy about. Since there has been some progress? But I'm still a little stressed. Because weight has never gone off before. It's always been a steady gain no matter what.

According to a body composition analysis I took recently, my BMI is about 36.5%. Leaving me with approximately 99 lbs to lose. That's if I stop there? I'll just post more about that in another update...

For now, this is me signing out!

Introduction

Hello,

My name is Nicole. This journal is intended for my own personal "diary". I will be using it to write about my day to day life. Or even to comment on what I'm currently working on. Primarily I will be talking about my weight loss and my family life.

Because I do have a lot of issues I am dealing with... I will warn you to turn back now if emotional strife, deranged rants, or if you find a 300 lb woman disturbing. If your capable of a open mind and this doesn't bother you... Then read at your own discretion.